The vendor selection project came up again today. Paulina asked me directly if I wanted to lead it — a six-month engagement picking a replacement for our current portfolio tool, involving four vendors, procurement, and probably three stakeholder workshops. She said it'd be "great visibility." I said I'd get back to her by Monday.
Here's what I actually know: it's probably 8 to 10 extra hours a week for at least four months, the executive who owns the budget is hard to read, and I've done this kind of selection before — the last one in 2022 added nothing I could point to on my comp review. What I don't know: whether this one lands differently because the new CTO is paying attention, or whether that's wishful thinking on my part.
The trade-off is concrete enough. If I take it, I'm giving up the four hours a week I've been putting into a systems thinking course I started in August. I'm halfway through and actually finding it useful for how I run retrospectives. If I drop it now I'll probably not restart it. That's real.