If I go back to sleep quick enough, would I be able to fall back to that dream with you in again...There were a blue bike in my dream that belonged to you, plus a blue jacket. And it feels like the vibe of high school or university. A story of no pain, no ending. And I was hoping to get an answer from you if we can ride together for one last time. You seemed like someone I had a crush on secretly. 

So too were you out of my dream, I guess. 

Haven't you not noticed at all? When I sat next to you but not dare to look into your eyes most of the time. When you said time passed so fast and I comforted you that we still needed to bike tomorrow otherwise we don't need to go. When I saw you writing the postcard so I enjoyed that I finally don't have to look away. When I let me guard down and put my chin on your shoulder for only one second then quickly up after you noticed. When you grabbed my waist the moment I lost my balance on a stupid small bump. When you offered me your hand just to help me walking down the hill. When I crossed those high grass after you like a little tail. When I so gingerly rounded my arms around your belly but couldn't help touching you a little bit more the second day. When I said let me take pictures for you too but I did it like shit. When I ordered the same fish you had after checking the menu for so long. When I gathered my courage to finally have a small beer with you. When you came by and asked if buying the postcard was my only intention and I tried my best to nodded like normal but all in tipsy. When I felt the chilly mountain breeze go through my body with the warmth of your shirt. When we took the caps out from my backpack for each other and I forgot more than you. When I handed over yours in shy. When I wandered around in the little garden on our last stop and tried to locate you sometimes. When I talked to you about the weird tree on that 'beach' before we left. When I didn't want to leave you alone at the restaurant but had to rush for a shower and came back. When I pretended to be careless and glancer over your body after the swimming. When you had your sweet porridge for breaky and I asked if it's cold or hot. When you greeted me that final morning. When you asked if you could still keep your stuff in my backpack again. When I asked if you wanted to put your waist bag with me because of the heavy rain. When after the fall the first thing we both checked on each other was 'are you okay'. When I ordered the juice because I know you like. When I always join with you whenever you asked for group pictures of selfies. When I panicked when you put the bracelet on me. When I had this bewildered look after you whispered that sentence when we parted. When I only had seconds to think what does that mean bc I was the one who owe you all the gratitude. When I felt your beard brushing against my cheek. When I hugged you back and didn't want to let go and it was an eternity. When you jumped on the boat eventually. When I waved back to you as long as you did. 

My love, haven't you not noticed at all? My secret love I hid well from you.

Could you take this love with you to the place you're going now too since you've left? I don't know how to hold it anymore. It's like the spring keeps running out. It's like the heavy rain pouring from the sky after a long sultry afternoon. It washed over me, taking me to you. But you're not in the place you once were. So I am taken to somewhere nowhere. I don't want to float on the unknown surface all by myself. I'd rather sink down with this current to the bottom of the sea. So take this love with you it's too much for me, but barely anything for you to miss.